Big Ultra Sound in the Morning!

I had the pleasure of babysitting my angelic nephew tonight, while he slept for two hours (hard work!), and his parents could slip away for a dinner out.  During this time, I sat with the TV on, but did a lot of thinking.  All the scenarios of how tomorrows ultra sound could go.  What the doctor could or couldn't have to tell us, and where we go on after tomorrow.  I got to feeling really guilty about how I have been lately.  Yes, I have been frustrated, yes, I am sick and tired of being the only person around here that can seem to clean up after our sick dog, yes, I feel resentment toward Sadie - A lot of it sometimes!  I know it's not her fault she is how she is.  I know - in my gut I know, just by looking at her over the last couple of days, that she does not want to be this way.  She just wants to be loved.  She just wants the same old attention she has gotten always. 

When I got home, I took Sadie's bed out of the dryer, (I have to wash it daily now), and I set it at the bottom of my bed.  I tried my hardest not to think about how most likely - no, most definitely , it will be soaked with urine in the morning.  So what.  At least my dog will sleep where she wants to tonight..  So what if she pees all over the place.  So what - it's not going to last forever!

With our crazy hectic lives, with school, and work, soccer, baseball, softball - we don't have time for a tragedy in our lives right now.  Don't you wish we had a say?  Don't you wish that was the way it worked?  "Nope , sorry doc, we need more time".. if it were only that easy. 

Till tomorrow, hold those you love close...think good thoughts, and keep us in your prayers.  (we need them!)